This thing of Ours

I don't know how to keep in touch is an excuse

I'm not saying that it is not true and quite frankly I use it unashamedly and a lot but it is still a poor reason

Because the truth is no matter how bad you are at it you haven't not been speaking to anyone - excuse the double negative

What I'm trying to say is if you really wanted to you will but you don't want to admit that it's been hard to message the person when you think of them because u fear you have drifted apart and don't want to have an awkward conversation cos u really don't want to think of ur friendship as reduced to that

That you feel like if u did speak to them u wouldn't be able to fully be urself and say all the things you really want to cos u don't know how or what the person thinks about you now. The whole u can be silly with ur friends but at this point they're almost an acquitance

Or that u are really lazy or u expect them to reach out first because u are not one to put urself out there for fear of rejection

Or u have lost those things u had in common that forged the friendship in the first place and as cliche as it sounds you really are at different places in your life


Bit then it's easier to say I don't know how to keep in touch..it's not a lie but it's not the whole truth

I don't know why I'm thinking about this or if I'd change myself. I realise u can't be bosom buddies with certain ppl forever but u may want to address this honestly with the people u do want in your life in the long run cos it might just be the icebreaker that will lead to the recovery of your friendship


P.S: in case it wasn't obvious I'm a believer in self development. You shouldn't apologise for who you are but u should also be honest about the best version of yourself and develop urself to it..hey don't just take my word for it

It's IMO

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